I once went to a leadership conference where a speaker said ‘disruption is an invitation’… I would tell you more but that’s all I wrote down. Haha.
It's an interesting thought though. Here I am writing my first blog post, something I have wanted to do for years, and I am only here because of disruption. Before today, I was living life on autopilot. I had a dead-end job that wasn’t fulfilling. I was working for a company who was focused more on the management's personal gain than the company mission or people who worked for them. I was in a terrible place in my life.
I stayed because I was making ends meet, and my job was easy. I stayed because I was scared. I was scared I wouldn’t be able to find another job that worked as well with my childcare situation. I was scared I wouldn’t find a job I found fulfilling. I was scared that I would end up at a place even worse than I currently was. I let that fear drive me for over a year. Then, one day out of nowhere, they fir... I mean, I quit.
I walked out terrified but also knowing that this was the kick in the ass I needed to take control of my life. (Cue fairytale music to mark the happy ending, JUST KIDDING!) I don’t have my life all figured out yet. I have some messes that still need cleaning up. I have ducks that still need to get into the row, but the second I walked out the doors of that unhealthy workplace (the one that was worsening my depression and making me crazy) I had no choice but to make a change. I could no longer settle for less. I could no longer live a pathetic life on autopilot. My life was disrupted, and it was a wonderful and unexpected invitation for change.
Life handed me an invitation, and I had a choice to make. Would I settle again, or would I push myself for more? Would I follow my dreams? Would I set a good example for my daughter, showing her that accepting the life that is handed to you is no way to live? I don’t have it all figured out, but I’m on a journey to gracefully clean up the messes that I have made, say, 'No thank you' to the things that are not good enough for me, and to take what I deserve. I won’t get it all right, but I’m going to keep getting up every time I fall down, reminding myself of my worth and my ability and my responsibility to teach my daughter that life is more than what is placed in front of you.
If you are wondering what you will find here at Tape and Glue Mom, I will tell you. You will find a real mom, who is far from perfect. You will see my journey as I teach my daughter life lessons, and as I learn some myself. I hope that you will be inspired, and I hope you will find that you are not alone.